What I’ve Learned After 6 Years of Godlessness – AKA “Dogmas, bruh.”

Technically, it wasn’t after 6 years. More like 2 years, but it’s taken me 4 years to finally write this down.

So, prepare yourselves for this mind blowing truth bomb that comes with a heaping pile of anecdotal evidence gathered personally and through discussions with others.

The truth I’ve learned after 6 years of walking away from belief is that just about everyone requires belief in something bigger than themselves.


Less because of the validity of “god shaped holes in our hearts”, but because of plain old fashioned tribalism and fear.

Be it politics, science, social justice causes or straight up theism, everyone clings to their own dogmas.

Having personally been raised in a church and by conservative parents, I’d assumed once I left belief and walked into a new community of people, that I’d be awash in open minded free thinkers.

I was wrong.

It took some doing, but once the newness of weak atheism/agnosticism rubbed off, I felt like Saul in the book of Acts when the scales fell from his eyes and he could again see clearly.

These atheists I’d assumed would be less likely to blind spots in their thinking were every bit as emotionally tied to their beliefs as the christian fundamentalists they raged against seemingly without end.

This mostly seemed to take the form of political worship of the left in varying degrees of  severity. To even entertain the idea of conservative thinking meant you were, by default, a racist homophobe that hates women.

The God of Government is the new deity and the only holy denomination is leftism.

Gag me.

I wonder what atheists would think of one of their heroes, Christopher Hitchens, if he were still alive today.

While many an atheist will send you endless YouTube clips of people getting “Hitchslapped” (see video below) by Christopher, those same people seem to forget that Hitchens was a pro-life conservative.

In today’s extreme political tribalism, I think even Hitchens, with all his oratory skill, could get swallowed alive by the gaping maw of the left.

You see, to be a conservative atheist puts you in a rather small section of an already small group, but to throw pro-life in there, too, well now you’re sitting at a corner table of a hot wedding tent next to the port-a-jons where nobody can see or hear your cries for fresh air.

Atheists, it seems, are a monolith of political leftists that worship the state.

And they all have iPhones. Weird.

Science is another thing people really get into when you leave religion.

Did you know that we’re all stardust?! DID YOU KNOW THAT?!

That means like, that we’re all stars and connected and part of a larger piece of the universe!

These people will post endless Neil deGrasse Tyson videos and talk about how glad they are that when they die, their essence goes back to the universe. An endless cycle of death and life!

These are also the people that like to point out how improbable something is in a sci-fi movie because it’s not realistic.

I know I’m taking the piss out of large groups of people, but this is how I see it.

Maybe it’s easy for me to poke fun at these groups because I’m so whatever about most everything.

My wife once, I believe, correctly summed former believers up so I’m going to paraphrase here and omit all her swears because she’s such a potty mouth:

“The type of believer someone was is probably the type of non-believer they’ll be. If you were On Fire for Christ, you’re probably obsessed with science now. If you were a hardcore Republican, you’ve probably flipped to Democrats.”

Based on what I’ve seen and learned. I think she nailed it.

Lucky for me I was a lukewarm Christian, so I’m a lukewarm weak atheist.


We live. We die. We should try to not be assholes during that period.

Avoid groupthink and ideologies where you can. If someone isn’t hurting another party, let them do their thing.

Let’s take everything with a nuanced approach and go from there.

Except iPhones. Those should go where Steve Jobs did.



Agnosticism > Atheism (and Theism)


With as much as I generally don’t like to run, you’d think I was running some crazy ass marathon for the amount my intellectual landscape has shifted over the last 5 years.

From lifelong believer to outspoken atheist full of venom to an atheist that’s just live and let live to now just a plain old boring lacks the balls to take a firm stance agnostic.

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Can An Atheist Do Church?


For a good while now, I’ve immensely enjoyed having 2 day weekends. I work Monday through Friday and, generally, don’t work weekends unless my shop is busy during outage season, but even then, it’s not a common occurrence.

When I was a regular church attendee and worked this same schedule, I had a 2 day weekend, but largely felt cheated out of the 2nd day. Why? Well, you’ve got stuff to do! You’ve got to wake up and make yourself look presentable and get your ass to church!

From wake up to walk back in the door of your house, you’re looking at a minimum of a solid couple of hours removed from your “free” day. Since I did this 5 times a week already, a 6th time is a drag, especially when there’s so much other stuff I could be doing, but leaving the church has allowed me to fully enjoy the 2 day weekend! Continue reading

It’s Not You, It’s Me


I get it.

I dug too hard. I posted too much. I was too inflammatory. I was offensive.

What I’m alluding to is that I’ve lost some friends coming out of the atheist closet. Luckily, the people that have mattered the most in my life are all still here and accounted for, but I’ve lost lots of friends. Not just ones I’ve not kept in touch with well and acquaintances I’ve always wished I’d been able to get to know more, but a handful of people that have meant a good deal to me over the years. Continue reading

“Now I am Become Red Starbucks Cup, The Destroyer of Worlds.” – Satan

satanIf you think the title of this post at all resembles what J. Robert Oppenheimer said after the Trinity Bomb went off and he realized that we’ve created the capacity to end ourselves, you’d be wrong. This is what Satan was quoted as saying recently as his way of finally toppling the great majority religion of Christianity in America.

Confused? I was too until I finally googled why the hell I keep seeing fury flung at Starbucks over Red Cups. Continue reading

Thanks for the Condescension!

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A friend on facebook posted at her frustration of atheists either mocking or being critical of God or Christianity if they don’t believe in it.

I responded in kind about how her claim does hold some merit (none of us blog about not believing in Santa), but fails to comprehend the pain people go through while leaving the faith, that it also doesn’t empathize with the loneliness that can only be helped through finding others of similar mind on the internet and finally, that others can be helped with us being vocal.

My response was kind, respectful and helpful. Unfortunately, someone I didn’t know responded, in a very, very long single paragraph, about how she loves me and that she prays for me and that when I die I’ll know the truth. That God will reveal himself and my free will is god’s gift to me, but that it’ll be my undoing.

The condescension was staggering so I wrote a response, but when I attempted to post, the original author of the frustrated status had deleted the post in it’s entirety.

So, feeling no vindication at putting this ill informed woman properly in her place, I’m just posting my response here for sanity. Continue reading